Monday, 9 November 2009
I've given up thinking that these friendships can be repaired; that they can go back to what they were before.
Go on and leave me out of your conversations and outings. When I organise, I invite you, but when you're the one organising, you always seem to conveniently "forget" about me. You know what? I don't care for this friendship anymore if this is how you want to be. If you don't care about me and don't make an effort like I do in repairing this friendship, then I don't see why I should be bothered either.
Goodbye J, both of you Js.
I shall just stick to my nice friends Ks :)
`the girl mused at 11:38 PM.
Thursday, 5 November 2009
- Picnic under the stars was awesome. Great food, great games and great company <3
- Went for my first ever Bocelli supper and it turned out better than I thought! :)
- HTHT session-cum-lunch with Jodee was therapeutic. I think I'll really miss the girl when she leaves next sem :(
- Spent 2 hours doing my laundry. WASTE OF TIME -.-
- Studying with buddy now hopefully that makes me more productive!
- Breakfast next week with Nicole and Xuefang! Can't wait.
- Draco run next week! Can't wait.
- Photoboothing with my roomie at 3am is awesomezzzzzz
`the girl mused at 3:11 PM.
Wednesday, 4 November 2009
Random stuffs:
- I really appreciate my roomie, my buddy, Eunice and Nicole for being so "confirming" in our communication climates :) This is in stark contrast to some of my other friends, but right now I shall just focus on the happier side :)
- I'm not sure if I really should go for OG supper tomorrow night. I don't want to risk coming back feeling "disconfirmed" again.
- Draco's birthday get-together just now was awesome.
- My 3 hall performances went well! Lots of people said they loved the items, especially the dances, YAY! :)
- Music therapy with Lighthouse never fails to make me feel wonderful.
- I'm looking forward to running with Draco tomorrow, even though I'm like the worst runner on earth lol.
- My boyfriend and I are closer now and so much sweeter. I love you sweetheart! :)
- I think I'm drifting away from the Scotto clique too. But that's okay, because I shall try to put in more effort coz these friends are people worth holding onto; I feel "confirmed" when I'm with them! :)
- I'm really looking forward to hall FOC 2010.
- I felt really touched that Nicole took pizza for me and passed it to me the moment I finished my final performance. Yay for good friends!
- I'm grateful for my close relationship with my roomie.
- I'm looking forward to meeting Kenneth on thursday night for dinner :)
- My buddy is making me laugh whenever he gets so passionate/obsessed about something.
- I'm feeling excited about working together with Edmund for Hall FOC 2010! We've definitely put together an awesome team of CGLs and GLs for Draco.
Right now, I'm happy and appreciative, and loving it :) Things may not be great, but with a couple of great friends around me, I think Life is still awesome :)
`the girl mused at 1:49 AM.
Friday, 30 October 2009
I will hold onto this because even though I cry over you, you're the only one who can make these tears and pain go away, and the only one whom I'll ever be truly happy with.Let's hold on tightly together, and make this work a forever.
`the girl mused at 5:40 PM.
Wednesday, 28 October 2009
I feel like I've spent my whole life waiting.
Constantly checking my phone, waiting for
an SMS or a call, which never comes.
This ring on my finger suddenly seems to have magical powers and is able to make me cry whenever I look at it.
It hurts so bad and I'm tired of waiting, and of crying.
My quiz is tomorrow, for God's sake I need to study the past 3 days have been a complete failure because you're hogging my mind and nothing else can go in. So tonight I will put everything into my dance, and try my best to put it to rest.
Give me strength to go on.
`the girl mused at 7:15 PM.
Sunday, 25 October 2009
Last night I dreamt that I was dancing.
It felt so liberating to be free.
It was almost as though I could dance away all the negative energy accumulated over the past few weeks.
I really hate conflict.
I hate cold wars.
You know what happened to my parents; please, don't let it happen to us?
Remember when we used to be happy. It shouldn't be a past tense; happiness should be in our present and future as well.
I love you and I want us to be happy.
Can we?
`the girl mused at 11:02 AM.
Saturday, 24 October 2009
Go on and leave me out.Bocelli feels like a group of people closely-knit together who go out on study outings and suppers but I'm not included, Draco hasn't been meeting up much, something happened to buddy but I don't know what.
At least yesterday's flyer outing with the coolies made me feel better. At least there, I know I'm a part of them.
`the girl mused at 2:22 PM.
